Code Blue: Thank You For Breaking My Heart.

Thank your for breaking my heart. Heartache has taught me valuable lessons that I couldn't have understood with a full heart. From the moment our eyes crossed paths, I saw a whirl wind full of adventure and happiness, we fuelled the vulnerability flame within each other. It never crossed my mind that we would become strangers in a matter of years, as my heart yearned for the magical feeling that seemed to present itself with your presence.

Thank you for breaking my heart into a thousand pieces. They say theres nothing more powerful than a broken man trying to rebuild himself. He learns far more about himself during these agonising struggles than any other part of his life. I’ve been able to reach deeper into myself than I ever have, a better understanding of myself and I thank you for that.

Thank you for falling out of love with me. I've now realised that you needed to fall out of love with me so that I could fall back in love with myself. I lost myself in our relationship, which I never saw coming. I got comfortable and fell out of love with myself, because you gave me love, which I foolishly thought that was enough.. oh how I thought wrong.

Thank you for saying goodbye for one last time. One last goodbye that wouldn't follow with an "I'll see you soon". One last goodbye that we never thought would occur in our fairytale all those years ago in the beginning. One final hug that seemed to drain all the energy between two souls into a combined emotional mush.

Thank you for that final kiss which seemed to be motionless yet holds years of emotion, as our lips touched for one final time. They're frozen yet barely alive, like sucking on an ice cube my lips didn’t want to let go as if to find a way, any way, desperately searching for a thread of hope to hold onto.

Although now after loving you my heart has stretched, turned and been pulled through a rolla coaster of raw emotions. My heart reacted to a Code Blue situation, in the medical filed meaning 'Cardiac Arrest' which requires immediate and intense treatment to the heart. How lucky I was to experience a love like ours, a wild journey that never slowed.

Thank you for breaking my heart.